Sunday, May 23, 2010

*No Man Is an Island* Conscience [and Pentecost]

Instead of going on and on about each chapter as I go, I'm changing my method... I'll pick one, maybe two things and instead of me discussing it at length, offer it up as food for thought for both myself and you...
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"Conscience is the face of the soul... and the light by which we interpret the will of God in our own lives" (30-31). --Merton
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Our conscience is what drives our doing... it drives our actions... the Holy Spirit is the fire that sets spark to our conscience. God's will for our life is discovered through our discernment before and in the presence of God. We are all called to action in other people's lives, in our own lives and on the behalf of the voiceless.... but we do not know that will of God without prayer... without the Holy Spirit. Today is Pentecost... the day the Holy Spirit swept through the masses creating a bewildering phenomena. Some say that day started the church as we know it today, but while we know community was God's idea from the get-go, we can understand Pentecost as a day in which our fires are ignited once again. A day in which our hearts are burning to hear the truth of the Gospel... the truth of freedom... the truth of liberation. Our hearts are liberated and turned to hear what God wills for our lives. Read the face of your soul... interpret the will of God in your life.
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What is God calling you to this day?
How has the Holy Spirit moved you?
What does Pentecost mean to you?
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*No Man Is an Island* Hope

"Faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see" according to Hebrews 11, right? Well, let me ask first, what do you hope for? Or rather, what IS hope?
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Protestant Christians cannot be Christians without hope, right? It is the resurrection that binds us together with a hope for something more... with the hope that death will not have the last word... with the hope that "Thy Kingdom will come"... So again, I ask, what is hope?
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"By hope we possess God without feeling God's presence" and "without hope, our faith gives us only an acquaintance with God" (15). So we need hope to really KNOW God... which seems paradoxical considering how much we will ever know about God... but we also "hope in God knowing that God loves us" completely and entirely. We are always loved by God even though we don't recognize it sometimes, which means then, that this hope Merton is talking about, brings us closer to feeling loved by God. Merton also says that "all sin is rooted in the failure of love" which makes sense because if we participate in an act of sin, we are surely denying how much we love God. If we love God so purely, we would not sin against God because we would be dedicated through love to God. An absence of hope, therefore, leads to sin and death.
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The most prophetic thing Merton says in this chapter is as follows: "The supreme expression of God's justice is to forgive those whom no one else would ever have forgiven. That is why God is, above all, the God of those who can hope when there is no hope" (21). Words escape me to follow this, so I will leave it there.
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What is your hope rooted in?
Why do you hope?
What about being a Christian leads you to hope?
For what do you hope?

Saturday, May 22, 2010

*No Man Is an Island* Love

Ponder the title of this chapter first: "Love can be kept only by being given away."
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In this workshop I was in the past two days, we talked about non violent communication, in which the underlying factor is natural giving... this idea of giving so completely of ourselves. Merton tells us that we are called to love selflessly... while (paradoxically) loving ourselves, as well. We are to love with a love that knows no boundaries; knows no good or evil. "If I am to love my brother [or sister], I must somehow enter deep into the mystery of God's love for him" (7).
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What does this mean to "enter deep into the mystery of God's love"? What does that look like? Could it mean loving someone so much, you love the hate right out of them? Could it mean just loving someone because they need to be loved? Could it mean loving someone with only the kind of love that God has? I don't know what kind of love that is... selfless love, sure. But we are called to take care of ourselves as well. Jesus entered into the world to be in relationship with people. {tangent coming} Jesus told us to love our neighbor as ourself. Merton also reflects that we must love ourselves and tell ourselves the truth if we want to love others and tell the truth about God to others. God came to earth in flesh to help the common people understand what God's love is really like. God came for relationship. We are made for relationships. Jesus did not come out of obligation... it was not God's will to send Jesus into the world with the purpose of dying. That doesn't work... It doesn't work because then what does that say about God's natural giving? What does that say about grace? It isn't a gift. God HAS to do it just because God has to. No, God freely gives grace because God wants to... it is a gift. Jesus was a gift to us to help us understand. Jesus was not obligatory. I refuse to believe in a God that wills death and predetermines/predestines people for failure. {tangent over, i think}
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We have to be careful though. We can love freely... but we cannot love just for the sake of loving... Merton claims that creates hatred. To love blindly is to love selfishly because then we are loving for our own satisfaction, not because we find value in people or in our relationship with them through the Holy Spirit. "To love another is to will what is really good for him [or her]" (5) and Merton goes on to claim that this love must be rooted in truth... the truth of God's love.
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If we are truly loving with God's love, we know no limits... we are attentive to the truth... we are aware of the movement of the Holy Spirit. God infuses our relationships... God is the core of our relationships. "For it is in God we live and move and have our being."-- Acts 17:28
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How much of your love is selfless?
Who is the hardest to love in your life?
What sort of truth telling do you need to do?
Is your love rooted in what is really good for the other?

Friday, May 21, 2010

*No Man Is an Island* Prologue

The first book on my summer reading/blogging list is "No Man Is an Island" by Thomas Merton (1915-1968), the incredible Trappist Monk. He was really ahead of his time, considering this book was written in 1955, and his discussions on spirituality and religion are rich and full of wisdom for us today and will be for ages to come. The title of this book is taken from the John Donne poem of the same title in which he says, "No man is an island, entire of itself; every man is a piece of the continent, a part of the main." (We're just going to have to get past the sexist language...)
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So, in the prologue, Merton sort of lays out his premise for the entire book. There's a whole lot to think about in these few short pages, which means I can only imagine what the rest of the book has in store for us. Anyway, a lot of what he has to say stems from the idea that we are all connected through God... through Christ... and through the Holy Spirit. We could pull out 1 Corinthians 12 or Ephesians 4 here, and he calls those passages out later on, but first, these words may be the most important for us to understand where he's coming from: "We learn to live by living together with others, and by living like them-- a process which has disadvantages as well as blessings" (xii). We must discover who we are, who we are in relation to God and who we are in relation to others. If you know me well, you know that I love everything about community. It is an important part of the Christian faith and an important part of who we are as humans. This idea is summed up in three verses, Merton says: "If any man would save his life, he must lose it," and, "Love one another as I have loved you," and, "We are all members one of another." And, in order to do/realize all of these commandments, we must realize "It is no longer I who live but Christ who lives in me" (Gal. 2:19).
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In order to find ourselves, to discover who we are, we must forget ourselves in order to understand ourselves because who we truly are is Christ embodied. The love we give, the actions we carry out, the things we say are not our own but of God. "Love your neighbor as yourself" implies that you actually love yourself. We can't get carried away with loving ourself, though because then we become selfish. We must "love ourselves in order to be able to love others... we must find ourselves by giving ourselves to them.... This is not merely a helpful suggestion, it is the fundamental law of human existence" (xix). It is damn shame they didn't put this in the constitution, that we should love our neighbor as ourselves, oh Christian forefathers... Had that been a law, perhaps our world would be in better shape.
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Sure we all have our weak spots and our bright spots, but because the body of Christ is made up of so many people, we compensate for each others "spots." So then, how do we love ourselves properly, knowing all of this about ourselves and about each other? "First of all, desiring to live, accepting life as a very great gift and a great good, not because of what it gives us, but because of what it enables us to give to others" (xx). This life is not about how far we can get in our own lives or how we can serve ourselves best... it is about embodying the love of Christ and the extravagant welcome of the Holy Spirit every moment of every day. Whatever we accomplish, whatever we gain, whatever we do is not for ourselves or for others, but for God and God alone.
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"I cannot discover God in myself and myself in [God] unless I have the courage to face myself exactly as I am, with all my limitations, and to accept others as they are with all their limitations" (xvi).
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What are your limitations?
What limitations of others are keeping you from being like Christ to them?
How much love are you willing to give?
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Other quotes from him that are striking:
"...Anxiety is the mark of spiritual insecurity. It is the fruit of unanswered questions... One of the moral diseases we communicate to one another in society comes from huddling together in the pale light of an insufficient answer to a question we are afraid to ask" (xiii).

"But neither do I intend to accept points of that tradition blindly, and without understanding, and without making them really my own" (xiv). --> We too are called to do this w/in our own traditions.

"Every Christian is part of my own body, because we are members of Christ" (xxii).

+Again and again+

I heard this song in my car the other day ("With a smile like that" by Jon Troast)and I think it could very well be a song from us to God. If we look at it like that, it personifies God quite a bit, but sometimes, I don't think there's too much wrong with that... especially when it's of this nature... The end of the song is what really grabbed me... Think about it yourself too...
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I got a feelin
You light up a lot of rooms
with a smile like that
yours is a welcome face
so good to see you here
I was feelin alone

you're the city on the hill
you're a lighthouse in a storm
leading me to the shore
I crossed an empty sea
got lost in a crowded street
then I find you here

Nobody told me where
It's like it was meant to be
I don't know what that means
you are a destinations door
you're my favorite place to go
you always feel like home.

If I lose my way again and again
If I lose my way again and again
If I lose my way again and again and again
Would you guide me home again and again
Would you guide me home again and again
Would you guide me home again and again and again
Cause I'd come back to you again and again
I'd come back to you again and again
I'd come back to you again and again... again and again and again
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If I lose my way, would you guide me home? I'd come back to you.
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I know I've lost my way again and again and I typically try to rely on myself to find my way back... to... wherever I was. Next time I lose my way, God needs to be my guide home...
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Well also you know, I think for our purposes, it would be better if the lyrics went in this order... "If I lose my way, I'd come back to you... would you guide me home?"
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It's a plea. God, I've lost my way and I don't know what to do... But I realize I need to rely on you... guide me home?
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It's not about having God guide us home and then saying well thanks, I suppose I can rely on you again... No, it's about realizing our need for God and then having God guide us back to wherever we came.
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Have you lost your way?
Who are you relying on to return you home?